I need you so much closer.

I haven't cried over Andy in a good, solid month. I hate how time heals. (Ha! Seems crazy, I know.) Time. Healing. Think about that. Some lessons we forget too quickly. Last week the Lord did a crazy work in the midst of my busy day and I thought to myself, "I am going to make an oath to myself NOT to forget this moment so that I can praise Him." Sunday we had an opportunity to share what God has done in our lives..."Crap. What was it he did last week again? There was something...It was cool...Crap!" I've already expressed in blog posts the things I don't want to forget about Andy. His servant heart. His humor - constantly relating to others in whatever way works for them. God! He's so close. Heaven is not far! I know this! Life is short! Why do things slip our minds so? It kills me.

"There is so much more we would like to say about this. But you don't seem to listen, so it's hard to make you understand. You have been Christians a long time now, and you ought to be teaching others. Instead, you need someone to teach you again the basic things a beginner must learn about the Scriptures. You are like babies who drink only milk and cannot eat solid food...We are confident that you are meant for better things, things that come with salvation. For God is not unfair. He will not forget how hard you have worked for him and how you have shown your love to him by caring for other Christians, as you still do. Our great desire is that you will keep right on loving others as long as life lasts, in order to make certain that what you hope for will come true. Then you will not become spiritually dull and indifferent. Instead, you will follow the example of those who are going to inherit God's promises because of their faith and patience" (Hebrews 6).

I need you so much closer.