I never believed people before or realized until this year how important it is for you to find yourself as a person before beginning a relationship. This year I became my own individual: I have a job, I am responsible, I clean my own toilet, I make my own means, I have my own bedtime, this is the kind of music I enjoy, this is what I do for fun, these are my ministries, these are the days I run and work out, this is what I believe, these are my friends, this is who I am. I am established. I have my own life and now I have something that I can invite someone into. In college, you have no idea what you want your life to look like or where you'll be. I had no idea if I would be teaching, working in the hotel business, sitting at home depressed :), continuing on for a masters, going to Bible school in England - whatever! If I had a boyfriend before now, he would have shaped me into being his life -- I would be but a shadow, a follower, a leech.
This is me. This is what I do. If you want to fit into a part of that, feel free. Let's do it.
I love the fact that I am here making my own meals, dancing around to my own music in my own house that I paid for with my own money. I love the fact that by the time a boy weasels his own way in, I will have my own pots and pans, fly-swatter, vacuum, stereo, everything. I have something to offer -- something to give.
I know that I have established myself as an individual that gives to the surrounding community. My students know me and like me. My parents trust me with their children. My pastor supports me and is proud of me. My hip-hop team laughs with me (and teaches me how to move!). I have friends, I have interests, I have admiration from my community that I have a place in. And I would expect the same from any man I would choose to date; it is the number one clue into who you are getting involved with if they are known and respected in the community.
I love the fact that I know who I am and that he will too before he commits to cherishing me.
I am confident that the Lord will fulfill his plans for me.
3 comments:
a roommate who adores you. :)
we have a fly-swatter????
WE WILL SOON!!! Yesterday I had to chase a big ole bee out the back screen door with my NOTEBOOK!!!
I love you! I love your neverending faith in life and love and yourself. You are such a treasure and deserve the most special young man. God has a miraculous way of putting those special people into our lives-- often at unexpected moments. Your prince charming/spider killer extraordinaire is out there being prepared for you :-)
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