Love on me, my lover

I have so many changes to make in my life, God, it's overwhelming. Total renovation - Step by step, I guess. Make me new from the inside out. I want to die to myself and be for real. I want to give everything I have to my students--my time, money, resources, hope, joy, strength. I want to build them up and inspire them. I am so selfish - help me to give it all up for your work, Lord. Help me to hold fast and to THRIVE. I want to thrive for you, Lord. You have blessed and rewarded me beyond belief with things I never did deserve. I barely give back anything. Help me to see life from your eyes and find my purpose and strength and joy and HOPE in you alone, Oh God. I love you.